Dear Universe,
Today marks my last 30 days in the province of Ontario & ever-so-beautiful capital of Canada, Ottawa.
Today marks the beginning of my journey because everything must end where it starts. Ottawa has shown itself to be a transformational city for my mind, career and heart. My guru always says that "the only thing constant in life is change" which has proven to be true in every compartment of my life.
It's difficult to find a place to start. I feel as though I must explain to you my journey, my past; explain what led me to sell everything I own and book a one-way ticket to Hong Kong! However perhaps the past isn't as important as the future. Our past may shape our character, change the direction of our lives but it doesn't define who we are. I will always appreciate my past. The challenges, the disappointments, the mistakes and even the deaths. For the highs would be nothing without the lows - two waves down create one up. Thank you (past) for making me who I am today. There is nothing I would change, nothing I regret and nothing I would want to re-do. In the end, my past will stay where it belongs, in my past, & only the silver lining of life's challenges will accompany me on this journey around the world.
As I look around my room my life is scattered across the floor in boxes, bags and storage containers yet my soul is at ease. I feel complete! I feel this because I know that this is where I am exactly meant to be.
Let's be straight - I am not running from anyone or anything nor I am setting out in the world to find myself or find something. The only place we can find ourselves is in the present, regardless of geographical location, and the only thing we truly need in life is love. I have completed everything society demanded and my family requested of me. The letters are now behind my name & the certificate hangs on the wall. Therefore my reality is as follows;
Let's be straight - I am not running from anyone or anything nor I am setting out in the world to find myself or find something. The only place we can find ourselves is in the present, regardless of geographical location, and the only thing we truly need in life is love. I have completed everything society demanded and my family requested of me. The letters are now behind my name & the certificate hangs on the wall. Therefore my reality is as follows;
For the first time, perhaps ever, I love myself, I love my life and I am no longer scared of the unknown or of being alone. Everyone I know seems to be getting married or having children yet I have no desire to do either. My dream, my desire is to pack a bag and travel the world! I have come to accept that before I can commit to anyone, any place, job, or anything I must escape into the unknown & give myself the gift of 12 months of true freedom.
I have learned that this life is not meant to lived safely nor is it meant to be watched. This life is meant to be lived! We are the Michelangelo's of our own lives!! "Whatever the mind can conceive the mind can achieve!" - The Secret. Therefore, there is no room in my soul or mind for negative emotions such as fear, doubt or worry. I only see the beauty of the unknown; the joy of my new found freedom; and the excitement of the adventure ahead! The journey. Our journey. My journey.
My life may be in boxes but my mind is whole and my soul is at peace.
To the unknown I raise my glass - Cheers!
Leah K. Sommerfield
