In the past two years it feels as though my mind has opened up in ways that my body only dreams it could follow. Finding the right words to describe these new found dimensions of my mind is impossible. No words strung together would ever fully capture how free I feel.
Today on the mat in Winnipeg I was finally able to take a knee and accept that I am exactly where I am meant to be in my life and in my yoga. Over the last two years I have forced myself into my career to achieve a certain level of confidence and a particular reputation as a Registered Dietitian. To make this happen my yoga practice had to take the backseat and in return my body changed. Everything is a little bit more loose, my breasts are a little larger and my thighs no longer contract like they use to. Yet looking in my mirror today I was okay with who I am. In comparison to the majority of our society my body is in excellent shape and in beautiful condition. Truth: we are always are own worst critic. Nevertheless my body is not the same as it was when I was last on the mat in Winnipeg two years ago.
However with the relaxation of my practice I found my breath and opened my mind. The power of my mind, your mind, any ones mind, is truly remarkable. I feel as though I have grown and strengthened my mental foundation on many different levels. Self-confidence. Determination. Acceptance. Faith. Self-realization. Patience. So today in the hot room as I laid on my mat I smiled with the acceptance that I am exactly where I am meant to be. In my yoga and in my life. The past two years (really the past 25 years) have prepared me for this adventure ahead. Everything has lead me to be at this place. As I laid on my towel today I felt so connected to the sensations of the hot room. My towel was cool enough with sweat that it chilled my body, the smell of stale wet carpet filling my nostrils, Todd's voice fill my ears and the feeling of being content drifted over me. I have come full circle.....And just as I hear Todd clap for the next sit up the following quote ran through my mind.
"Be content with that you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking the whole world belongs to you" - Founder of Taoism
I smiled ear to ear, exhaled twice, and turned around for camel.
