Dear Mommy,
Today is your birthday and you would be turning 62 but it's been nine years though since we celebrated your birthday and nine years since I've seen you, hugged you or felt a mothers love. I miss you everyday Mommy but birthdays and Christmas are the hardest. These anniversary dates remind me of your continued absence in my life. I miss you so much Mommy. Everyday.
Sometimes I wonder what we would be doing today if you were alive. How would we celebrate your birthday and would you be excited about reaching 62? Would there be cake and presents? Wine and singing? I wonder where in the world we would be on your birthday and who would be celebrating with us but, Mommy your not here!
There is no celebration of your birthday, no gifts, no cake, or singing. It seems like no one even remembers anymore that today is your birthday but that's what time does to people Mommy. We heal, we move on and then we forget but Mommy I haven't forgotten. Everyday I think of you and wonder so many things.
I wonder if you would be proud of me and the life I have chosen to live. The decisions I have made and the of the woman I have become. I have met a man Mommy and he has changed my life. I'm in love and I wish you could meet him Mommy. I think you would really like him! So much has happened in nine years Mommy, you have missed so much and there is so much I wish I could share with you.
After we lost you to ALS my whole life changed Mommy. You need to know that, how hard you fought to stay alive and how much you suffered during those six years changed me fundamentally. Your strength and your will to live made me see life differently. I didn't realise it at the time Mommy but, your death gave me the gift of gratitude for life. Daddy and I witnessed your suffering day after day for six years but now I never complain about my own life Mommy. I always say 'thank you' for my health because I watched your body disintegrate Mommy to the point where you were trapped within it.
I realise the importance of being kind to people Mommy and giving them a listening ear or a dollar from my pocket because the kindness shown to us in our hour of need was unforgettable. It is because of how your disease Mommy and how it made you walked so funny and talked so funny that I never judge anyone anymore Mommy.
But really Mommy, it's because of losing you that I appreciate everyday of my life.
Every.
Single.
Day.
Happy Birthday.
Love Leah
Today is your birthday and you would be turning 62 but it's been nine years though since we celebrated your birthday and nine years since I've seen you, hugged you or felt a mothers love. I miss you everyday Mommy but birthdays and Christmas are the hardest. These anniversary dates remind me of your continued absence in my life. I miss you so much Mommy. Everyday.
Sometimes I wonder what we would be doing today if you were alive. How would we celebrate your birthday and would you be excited about reaching 62? Would there be cake and presents? Wine and singing? I wonder where in the world we would be on your birthday and who would be celebrating with us but, Mommy your not here!
There is no celebration of your birthday, no gifts, no cake, or singing. It seems like no one even remembers anymore that today is your birthday but that's what time does to people Mommy. We heal, we move on and then we forget but Mommy I haven't forgotten. Everyday I think of you and wonder so many things.
I wonder if you would be proud of me and the life I have chosen to live. The decisions I have made and the of the woman I have become. I have met a man Mommy and he has changed my life. I'm in love and I wish you could meet him Mommy. I think you would really like him! So much has happened in nine years Mommy, you have missed so much and there is so much I wish I could share with you.
After we lost you to ALS my whole life changed Mommy. You need to know that, how hard you fought to stay alive and how much you suffered during those six years changed me fundamentally. Your strength and your will to live made me see life differently. I didn't realise it at the time Mommy but, your death gave me the gift of gratitude for life. Daddy and I witnessed your suffering day after day for six years but now I never complain about my own life Mommy. I always say 'thank you' for my health because I watched your body disintegrate Mommy to the point where you were trapped within it.
I realise the importance of being kind to people Mommy and giving them a listening ear or a dollar from my pocket because the kindness shown to us in our hour of need was unforgettable. It is because of how your disease Mommy and how it made you walked so funny and talked so funny that I never judge anyone anymore Mommy.
But really Mommy, it's because of losing you that I appreciate everyday of my life.
Every.
Single.
Day.
Mommy.
Happy Birthday.
Love Leah
